Summer Sorrows

I just wanna drink 'til I stumble and fall I don't really care right now, fuck it all Trying to get my mind off things but my go-to dealer Ain't picking up none of my calls And the girl I fuck with is on some dumb shit She wants a break now I'm about to break down She treats my love like it's just a playground Even though I stayed down Damn Now I'm drunk driving to the party Trying find me the address, lightning cigarettes Blowing out the smoke and replying to a text She's dying for some sex but she has covid All right I'm depressed and my ex doesn't reply when I text her Numb all the pain with the line off a dresser My guilty pleasure might end the night on a stretcher Just know I'm fine with the pressure And I don't know what to do And none of my homies are coming through What's summer coming to And all my old hook-ups are out fucking someone new Looks like I'm chugging another two I don't know what to do Because I know you're not coming through Girl, I'm in love with you But I know you're probably out fucking someone new Yeah, driving on the hillside with my eyes low Playing with the lighter like I'm a pyro' Pedal to the floor and my energy is poor Honestly there's really no telling where it might go Man, I'm just done with all of the love shit I just keep drinking, can barely function All the consumption of these elixirs Still are not enough for me to not miss her Body full of toxins talking to the ocean Not too many options, I'm lost in emotion She was wanting all my devotion but thanks to my childhood trauma I can never get my heart into motion Damn, it's frozen in time Probably wasn't something she was hoping to find I'm broken and so misaligned I hold on to pain that I know isn't mine But I wish I was perfect Wish I could make you feel worth it Wish all the pain that I hid didn't surface I know that shit makes you nervous I hate when I switch to that person you burst into tears And I was so non-empathetic Fuck, I swear to God I regret it The way I went off was pathetic You deserve better and baby that's not where I'm headed And I don't know what to do And none of my homies are coming through What's summer coming to? And all my old hook-ups are out fucking someone new Looks like I'm chugging another two I don't know what to do Because I know you're not coming through Girl, I'm in love with you But I know you're probably out fucking someone new Damn