If I Died Tonight

(Girl, how I love you, I can't help myself) (Today I wake up, wish I'm someone else) (Girl, how I love you, I can't help myself) (Today I wake up, wish I'm someone else) And if I die tonight how would I be remembered As a man that disconnects from a pain that still lingers It's in the past now yeah that's where I'm found My future isn't something that I wanna pass down I put up my walls, I keep up my guard Growing up, everybody says they want to go far Yeah, then their dreams aren't enough Yeah, they were stolen by a demon yo that demon is us People all around me are making mistakes But they take no blame, they say that it's just fate I see a smilе that's fake They had a full tank of gas And then thеy slammed on the brakes And that Yeah, that makes me feel out of place They call me crazy Cause I don't feel the need to relate Take all that baggage Yeah they just transfer the weight Just cause you pawned off all your problems Doesn't mean your life's great Take a good look around Look at the people right now That are holding you down Would you still be fine? Yeah, if they weren't around They may not always be Just be honest please, are you happy? Yeah, are you happy? And these are just the things I believe I think before you plant your flowers, the grass should be green I think we move too quickly trying to find what life means And we start skipping through chapters And we don't play out the scenes So focused on what we're not Take the opinions of others And we start changing the plot It's all about what you want It's not about what they got You live your life around them you won't amount to a lot I treat relationships, just like the moon No matter how far or close I know I'm never consumed And everybody's fitting in they just play it cool I'd rather be the one out here who's breaking rules I stay consistent I make moves that are subtle I swear to God, everybody wants to see you struggle So they can meet you at the bottom They've been there for years They feel better about themselves when you become their peer But me, naw I can't give into the pressure cause when I do That's when I slip into depression And every time I open my heart, it leads to deception So if I rush to commitment then I ain't learning my lessons Know that's a strange view But pain just hits a little different when it's pain you choose I know you settled, go do what you do But I'll be out here making music I got so much to prove