Moment

Suicidal like "who am I though? I fucking hate you" that's my newest motto I could choose the change but I choose the bottle If I fall asleep I'll see a new tomorrow Yeah Cause you don't feel the pain that I've been feeling inside I'm fucking losing my mind They're lookin' at me like I shot the Sheriff Cause I got too drunk and I'm not embarrassed But I've been depressed and that's not apparent Unless I say it out loud, so they all can hear it Yeah And I don't wanna seem like all I want is attention You seem to think I'm pretendin' Now all I see is these shards of glass So I walk in the bar and I start a tab I got a soft soul but a hardened past Tell the waiter up front he can call my cab I'm a hypocrite, an insomniac I'm a piece of shit but I honor that I got mental problems and it's got me mad But you seem to think that they aren't as bad As I think they are What kind of Cole is that? You don't know what it's like You ain't thought to ask But you ain't me and you never will be The devil inside was sent to kill me If you really care I expect the real thing I feel they won't ever get the message Will they? It's all good, I won't get my hopes up I'm drunk as fuck but I think I'm sober I been all alone lately Feel like I might go crazy I must the only one that feels this way Lock up all the doors baby Disconnect the phone baby Block out all the noise and I might be okay Just let me have my moment I really need my moment I gotta have my moment I really need my moment I need a moment of silence I found a bottle back in grade seven A young desperado, I had to make effort My foot's on the gas, not the break pedal I just put on ice, so it tastes better, yeah I guess I'm just confused 'cause I see all the potential But lately I'm going mental (I don't know what to do) Who'd a thought that I'd get this nervous The lifestyle I lead's not picture perfect The hear what I say but they miss the purpose Pour the shot in my glass 'til I hits the surface That hotter inside I should lift the curtains But today I just feel like a different person I keep tellin' myself that it isn't urgent If you dig what I'm sayin' you should feel my words then It's obvious to me that I'm the root of the issue Don't make me use it against you (Cause I will) Cause when it back fire, it just disappear I'm way too anxious, I live in fear I see it from a far and it's crystal clear But know the objects closer than it appears When I'm fucked up I feel okay But the next morning there's no way That I could feel good and it's so strange So I do it all again 'till it go away I don't need friends, I got Jose And this red cup and this O.J It's what it's, it'll take a while So I shake these hands and I fake the smile I been all alone lately Feel like I might go crazy I must the only one that feels this way Lock up all the doors, baby Disconnect the phone, baby Block out all the noise and I might be okay Just let me have my moment I really need my moment I gotta have my moment I really need my moment I need a moment of silence