What If?

Lately I've been living in my head Some days it's hard to get up out of bed My family be worried bout my health I can't blame em' cause I'm nervous for myself What if I run out of breathe? What if I run out of meds? What if I told you I'm not suicidal but sometimes I feel like I'm dead? I haven't been feeling alive, look at the pain in my eyes Everyone said imma be just fine But what if I'm not? What if I die? What if I never get the chance to say goodbye? But what if I fought and never look back? And murdered all these demons following me from my past I know I'm gon see better days I ain't tryna manifest my pain Gotta keep going, I got so much to lose but more to gain Gotta keep showing em' I'm a young rich boy from the "H" From the east side to L.A Baby I'm a real one ain't no bitch in my DNA When I get a million I'll split it with my family It's no better feeling than seeing a smile on their face Tryna make sure we all paid, fuck the fame But what if I fuck up again? What if I end up giving in? What if these demons win? What if the voice inside of my head keep on sending threats? I keep telling myself ima make it til the end But what if I'm not? What if I die? What if I never get the chance to say goodbye? But what if I fought and never look back? And murdered all these demons following me from my past I'm stronger than the devil is He tryna bring me down but I ain't having it Anxiety inside of me, gotta find a way to manage it I said "momma I'm trying to beat the battle I've been in" Gotta make sure she know that ima win Uh-uh, uh-uh I don't wanna die too young Uh-uh, uh-uh I gotta survive so one day I'll meet my son But what if I'm not? What if I die? What if I never get the chance to say goodbye? But what if I fought and never look back? And murdered all these demons following me from my past