Worse Than Down

Hate every world I'm in until I leave and then I miss it I wish I could appreciate the things that I was given But it's been years since I was happy why does no one listen Wish I could disappear but then nobody would remember The thought of leaving things behind it really makes my head hurt I never really understood the meaning of forever Wish I knew then what I know now Being up is worse than down Cause you never know what's coming next I wish that I could take me back To the good old days I never had The past is all that I've got left La da di da la da di da la da La da di da la da di da la da Wish I knew then what I know now Being up is worse than down I love attention till they come for me then I start hiding Until I heard the noise I never really liked the quiet Didn't think chasing my dreams would lead to just surviving I really hate the sky the minute that the sun starts falling Cause in the dark being alone turns into feeling lonely Say I need space but I get anxious when my friends stop calling Wish I knew then what I know now Being up is worse than down Cause you never know what's coming next I wish that I could take me back To the good old days I never had The past is all that I've got left La da di da la da di da la da La da di da la da di da la da Wish I knew then what I know now Being up is worse than down I'm pointing fingers at the pandemic Easy to blame it for all the damage But trying to break all my bad habits Is even harder for me to manage I'm pointing fingers at the pandemic Easy to blame it for all the damage But trying to break all my bad habits Is even harder for me to manage I'm pointing fingers at the pandemic Easy to blame it for all the damage But trying to break all my bad habits Is even harder for me to manage I'm pointing fingers at the pandemic Easy to blame it for all the damage But trying to break all my bad habits Is even harder for me to manage