If I Surrender

Lately I've been feeling so ashamed By these thoughts I'm hiding in my brain 'Cause I've been holding them down but they twist me violently I'm hanging by a thread tonight, but this time I don't wanna be saved (saved) So let me fall, let me break Under everything unsaid Just let me die 'cause I can't take Living with what's in my head If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me Will it set me free? What's the point of holding on like this? When no one seems to care if I exist There is no agony like being strong when no one knows you're sick So sick of hearing, I should stay when I know I would never be missed So let me fall, let me break Under everything unsaid Just let me die 'cause I can't take Living with what's in my head If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me If you could see under my skin You'd realize why I hold it in Why it's a fight I don't wanna win Why it's a fight I don't wanna win If you could see all my abuse And spend a day inside my shoes You'd realize why I just wanna lose You'd realize why I just wanna lose Will anyone believe the hell of being me Before I decide to be the dying proof? So let me fall, let me break Under everything unsaid Just let me die 'cause I can't take Living with what's in my head If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me If I surrender, surrender To the monsters in me Will it set me free?